Change is a comin'

I have heard a whisper for a while now.  It is one of those situations when you are in your comfort zone and you fear the unknown.  Sometimes you work hard to silence it or maybe even pretend it is not even there.  Maybe you don't even hear it or try to hear it.  But the whisper stays with you and always comes back.  I have trouble letting go and letting God do His thing.  He has blessed me despite me not always seeking Him in all things.  I have had lots of wrong turns but he has worked with me nonetheless.  It isn't that I am a bad person...I just think I am in control sometimes...which is VERY foolish.  I want to be able to see all that God sees but probably couldn't handle the BIG picture if He showed it to me.  Why can't I be satisfied with little peeks?  I actually pray for "billboard moments" so His direction is clear.  Sometimes I just wish He would scream!  But, He continues with the whisper thing.  I realize my problem...faith is my struggle.  God constantly tests my faith because He knows me and wants me to act on faith alone. (even if I do not have all the answers)...

So, I am doing it.  I am choosing to finally answer the whisper.  I have taken a job back at home.  People will think it is crazy but I know it is in His timing.  God truly has a sense of humor.  For instance, one night while rocking Chloe Jo, I realize I am actually singing my Alma mater.  Not a typical lullaby.  I am excited and scared to death.  I will miss my friends but will love being surrounded by those who I have known my whole life.  I am curious about God's path for me and David now.  This is it...I'm stepping out on faith alone. 

I have a garden stake in my flowerbed that says GROW...you know God speaks to me in my backyard, right?  Well...that is His message for me.  GROW your faith...aha!