Duck season allows for lots of me time when Chloe Jo is sleeping. I miss David sooo much but it is a bit refreshing to have full access to the remote and control of the OFF button on the television. I have been thinking...time alone should be time of reflection...quiet time with God and myself to do some soul searching. I should take the opportunity to do some listening to that calm still voice that sometimes gets lost in the noises of my life.
I know things are changing all around me...my job change...daycare changes...David's business is taking off...all things changing are showing themselves as huge blessings for us... BUT I resist every change that comes my way. This is a flaw in my character. I typically stay where I feel comfort...and always choose the same path even though I feel I need to maybe stir things up even a little more.
For instance, when I go to my closet, I see clothing of many colors but I always choose navy. It is safe...somewhat slimming...and comfy to me. I like navy. Don't be a hater. I know I have no style...I just need to be comfortable to do what I do.
Back to my point, I wonder sometimes if anyone else is even thinking about that whisper. The world is so wrapped up in busy...it tries to suck you in. I strive to keep things pretty simple. I do not like a full schedule of events on the weekend. I try to stay home as much as possible. I make an effort to cook meals for my family. I even put up corn the last two summers. haha I love to sit around and talk to my friends and family. I like to read books and play games. I love to make my home cozy. I am happiest when David and I are at home with Chloe Jo doing a bunch of nothing.
So, now that David's business is showing success, I struggle. I am thankful but trying to find my place in the duck world. heehee See friends, I am not a duck hunter. I have no plans to be a duck hunter. AND I miss my duck hunter being in my cozy home doing absolutely nothing when he is away. (There, I said it.)
Something strange happened the other day...I was driving along in my car and all of a sudden the guy on the radio says...GOD WON'T PROTECT YOU FROM WHAT HE CAN PERFECT YOU THROUGH. I immediately sent a random text to my friend, Jenna. I wanted to share it...it was so randomly said and that was it. It was intended to be a lesson for me to ponder about. This is all about spiritual growth. I get it. God wants me to turn to Him...and struggle tends to make me cling to God even more.
In time, I know He will reveal His next steps for us. Until then, I need to remain positive...count my blessings...continue listening for that whisper. Chances are the next time I go to my closet, my choice will still be navy, though...just saying.
I wonder if any of this even makes sense to you, friends. haha
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