NOT BY CHANCE...

Well, today I will do one of the toughest things I have probably ever done.  I really have no other plan other than to take it a day at a time because I do not know how to do life without my MamaBill.  We all have that constant person in our life who checks in on us...the one who always lights up when they see you even now as a grownup.  I know one thing for sure...I was one of her greatest joys in life:)

God works in mysterious ways...The evening she died I had taken Chloe Jo to the store in Dresden.  Usually we go to McKenzie to the store but this particular time I went that way instead.  As we approached Dresden High School, I see an Ambulance coming from the road you turn off of to go to MamaBill's House. There were no lights on or speeding by to rush to the hospital...it was like slow motion...and that quiet almost faint whisper...MamaBill is in that ambulance, Misty.

I immediately called her cell phone and house phone with no answer.  I just pushed the thought aside and went on to get my groceries while the ambulance followed me all the way until I turned off at E. W. James.  On my way home, I get to Dresden High School and my cell phone rings...it was news that MamaBill had died.   

I am probably still in a bit of shock.  I just pray for peace. This will be tough...

From my 30 Days on Facebook...

Day 02 - A picture of you and the person you have been closest with the longest.
Meet Billie Jean Mansfield...my MamaBill
wife of late Doyle Mansfield and mother to Mike
has called me Mema my whole life
maker of best buttery toast around...
red lipstick and a mink coat
prefers small cokes bottles with peanuts and a 100<if you get me>
Oreos and Milky Ways
calls Chloe Jo "her baby"
retired owner of Doyle's Body Shop
never stops at the four-way stop
took me shopping for first bra and held it up in the store yelling what about this one as I hid in the clothes rack
always bought my new school clothes in the fall
and a new itchy Easter dress and ALWAYS Buster Brown shoes
has a license plate on her silver and black Volkswagon bug that says let me tell you about my grandchildren
we talk on the phone late at night sometimes
I used to love going with her to the beauty shop as a kid...
would do anything I asked her to do
I love you MamaBill:)

Day 09 - A picture of the person who has gotten you through the most.
Once again MamaBill...she hugs on Chloe Jo just like she did with me. I remember even in my younger adult life crawling in her big bed in tears a few times<and a few times wishing I could later on in my adult life> not knowing what to do about certain things I had gotten myself into...calling her in the middle of the night during storms< both literally and emotionally>...she would pamper me in troubling times...one thing she would do was wash, blow dry, and brush my hair...I loved for her to mess with my hair...I would almost fall asleep on the stool! One thing for sure she has always stood by me. We sure love "Aw Bill" as CHloe Jo calls her.

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